It's been 3 months since i wrote here.. thoughts about coming here to rant appear in my mind every now and then but it just got washed away by tsunamis of work issues that i did not even bother to touch the blog. so many sorries about that.
5th month, and it's quite worrying for me as i had not caught up with my upperstudy's expectations. got quite a number of scoldings. no empathy expected. double jobs everywhere. i had to use 2 times of my time to do sth that is worth only one time.
perhaps it's just problems with me; i do task a, then had to do task a again. but how does this issue impact my schedule and stress level? i do task a, b, c, d and e. i submit. then i had to do f, g and h . and this time, just at this exact time, a, b, c, d and e were thrown back to me and redo. so i had to handle 8 tasks at one shot. isn't that stressful?
next question. why do i have to do double job? why do i always make mistakes within the first? why do i dare not ask? these are questions YET TO BE ANSWERED. it kind of worries me as much as if i didnt know the answer, nobody could help me, and this issue will continue to bite me for as long as eternity, before i resolve it.
character issues. carelessness. ego. please do away with it. how to clear away carelessness? can someone teach me, please?
I couldnt learn much. even basic things like sending emails. or even drafting. the proper ways never get in my head. what's this.
what's wrong with me. come on.